Friday, September 28, 2012

I really miss you alot you know?

2 years now. You know how much I miss you? No amount of tears can bring you back. I accept that it is part of life. But I am sorry. I love you alot.

I met these few old people on the bus that day. And I spoke to them in Hainanese. You know.. if I don't do it, I think I might just forget the language. You know I promised to pass the language on? I really don't know what legacy I can live for the future generations, but I can only know that your love will be passed down to the next generation.

I hope Facebook never dies? I love you popo. And one day, I hope one day we will meet again. I really miss you.

Friday, August 17, 2012

Popo, please watch over the 2 lil ones. I hope they are fine.....

3 weeks to go....

3 weeks to go... Mixed feelings. So much is hitting my emotions right now. Sigh. I can't help but be reminded of how sudden you left us. I missed you Popo. One moment I was trying to get you out from the toilet... the next you were gone.

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

In memory with love

Popo, you moved on 5th June 2010 to visit your husband after a long 24 years. Since day 1 I was born, I have been immersed in your teaching. Maybe that is why you instructed me to pass it on.



Please allow me to first thank you for the years of love you have showered onto all of us. Quote Celine Dion's Because You Love Me. "I'm everything I am, because you love me." And the way you love is that you can love us all, unconditionally, without a single tinge of expectation. By all of us, I meant the 31 of us from 3 generations and our friends inclusive. It led me to think, how can I love with such a magnitude..



I would like to dedicate this to the family. For a few days already, I have been feeling sleepy. I now know that she made me rest so I could write this. Somehow from Day 1, I felt Popo tell me she has unfinished business. I only felt her at peace when I told her I will spread what she wanted to say. I will try my best to teach her teachings to all her future generations. And Hainanese too =) I know I am probably in no position to do this, but a promise to her, I will still try my best.



Lesson 1: Communication. Think for them and doors will be open.

So many coincidental things happen during this period. I think it is a way of Popo sending messages to all of us based on our characters. I think even upon death, she has her way of communicating to all her children and grandchildren. I think everyone understands this now, and she hopes that all of us will try us best to communicate our love to one another, the rest will flow.



Lesson 2: Care for each other. Enjoy the spirit of giving.

Day 3, after the promise, I really took the initiative to stop crying and start caring. I started to see Popo in everyone. Then I told Didi (Jere) 'Let's go buy Fried Yam for Popo' & I coaxed Aunt Esther along too. We drove out to buy from her favorite stall. There, Didi bought lunch too, as the fried rice had egg. And Aunt Esther added 'Aga Aga' for Popo's dessert.



At the stall, although I came with the intention to buy only a few pieces, I was suddenly ordering non-stop, adding and adding. [Back of my head I was thinking, the food might be a lil too heaty since everyone had not slept.] But I couldn't stop ordering. On my way back, as I was turning into the carpark, and a quick safety check into the mirror.... as my eyes looked up and left the mirror I went !!!! She was there sitting in the back seat. WITH US!



There and then I realised, what she was trying to let me know. If you truely care for one another from the bottom of your heart, nice things will appear one way or another.



Interestingly, so many of us bought food. All had leftovers. But the Fried Fritters..... they were gone just like in a space of 20mins. Everyone had their share of the food I thought was too heaty.



Lesson 3: Love each and everyone of us. For her blood flows in our veins.

(Interestingly as I typed Lesson 3's heading. I scratched my ear and blood stained my fingers)

Day 4, I was lying on the floor of Popo's living room. I had fell asleep before. Then I woke up, eyes still closed. I thought, ' Popo... Ah Bee is lying here, if you want you could sayang me...' Then at the same moment I completed my sentence in my thoughts, I felt 2 pokes on my arm. I opened my eyes quickly, I saw Cousin Sis Emily. It strucked me. She really is 'sayang-ing' me, through her 'blood'. She asked me to prepare some stuff for the ritual at night. So from this, she wants to let us know her blood flows through all of us. Please love all of us like you love her.



Lesson 4: Patience & Appreciation. Look not at imperfection, but smile upon their grace with love.

She personifies it. Nuff said.

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These simple lessons are easily obtained at a small scale. But to achieve it at her level, I think she wants to tell us this needs practice. Through these 5 days, she made us practise it through her own way. It's her wish for this whole united family to move as one. To share the love as one. I think that is why united as one, we got to see the most beautiful sight of a passage to the heavens lit by fire.



Lastly, I wanna say I love you all.... because in loving you all, we seek our chance to love Popo for her Kindness....



=)

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Godzilla theory

The big fish eats the small fish. The Small fish eats plankton. You can never see a small animal at the top of the food chain.....

To be the top you need to be BIG. How to grow is the next question..................

Thursday, February 18, 2010

STUPID HDB! What's the point of replying me.......

I love it how she crapped everything from the website and tells me to refer to it again at the end... WTF.

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Hi Alisa,

Thank you for your informative mail which I can easily get from the HDB website.

1) Why is your email started with number 2? Is this a standard mail you send out to the countless of legitimate Singaporeans who are applying for a flat?
2) I applied for every chance there is since I decided to get married and help play my part to ameliorate the aging situation in Singapore. Every application is SGD 10… How many more SGD10 does HDB expects me to pay before I can get a flat?
3) HDB should easily have access to demand statistics. Given the 4 to 1, 5 to 1 ratio of application, can’t HDB look into releasing more projects at a time? Of course I stopped applying for more projects… yet another S$10 to contribute to incompetency.
4) And I don’t need you to tell me about the appointment…. I don’t need to tell you how many available units you have, you should know. And you should know my queue no. as well. So what is the point of saying “Whether you will be able to select a unit will depend on the availability of the flat and ethnic quota when your turn is due. Details of the flat selection appointment will be sent to you via a separate letter.”

And we might consider resale if Dawson’s queue no. is just as bad. Thank you for letting me know my options.

Gong Xi Fa Cai.

Have a nice day.

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From: Meiyi Alisa YU [mailto:ay14@hdb.gov.sg]
Sent: Thursday, 18 February 2010 4:47 PM
To: Hong En Heng
Subject: APPLICATION TO BUY A FLAT

HOUSING & DEVELOPMENT BOARD

Your Ref : Our Ref : 400-2010002841
Date : 18 Feb 2010
TEL : 64903662
FAX : 64903777
EMAIL : hdbsales@hdb.gov.sg

Mr Heng Hong En

Dear Mr Heng

APPLICATION TO BUY A FLAT

We refer to your email.

2 You have applied to buy a flat from HDB five times. Of the five flat applications, three were to buy a new flat under the Build-To-Order (BTO) system in the non-mature estates. The rest of the applications were for other sales exercises, including the Dec 2009 BTO exercise to buy a flat in a mature estate at Dawson. As such flats are limited in supply and very high in demand, the chances of securing a flat are very slim.

3 Your chances of getting a new flat will be much better if you continue to participate in BTO exercises in the non-mature estates, which is HDB’s main supply of new flats. HDB has just launched two projects, ie Punggol Crest (Punggol) and Treegrove@Woodlands under the Feb 2010 BTO exercise. If you are interested in the flats offered, you may send in an application online via our InfoWEB at www.hdb.gov.sg before the closing date of 24 Feb 2010.

4 Your selection appointment for a 4-room flat in Punggol under the Nov 2009 BTO exercise is scheduled on 28 Mar 2010 at 11:30am. Whether you will be able to select a unit will depend on the availability of the flat and ethnic quota when your turn is due. Details of the flat selection appointment will be sent to you via a separate letter. You will be informed of the ballot result for your flat application under the Dec 2009 BTO exercise at Dawson (Queenstown) by end Feb 2010.

5 If you need a flat urgently, you may consider buying a resale flat from the open market. As you and your fiancee are first-timers, you may also apply for the CPF Housing Grant and the Additional CPF Housing Grant Scheme in your purchase of the resale flat, if you meet the respective eligibility conditions. You can refer to our HDB InfoWEB at www.hdb.gov.sg for more information on these two schemes.

Yours sincerely
MISS YU MEIYI ALISA
CUSTOMER SERVICE MANAGER
for HEAD (SALES OPERATIONS)
ESTATE ADMIN & PROPERTY DEPT

Thursday, February 04, 2010

BEAT Eczema!

Got this online and decided to try. And I am ALREADY Dyiiiinnngggg from it. HElp HeLP!

Apple Diet Detox program o.O!

OMG 5 hours into a pure apple diet.... and I am running low on energy... thinking of my chicken rice, my char tou kuay, chicken chop, pork chop, etc etc etc.

43 more hours to go........ 43 LONG hours save me pls

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Work Work

I can't tell you how much I hate working right now.
I can't also tell you how important it is for me to stay working.
Even more so, I can't fully express how it feels like to have no choice and do something you don't enjoy.

As much as I appreciate Fang's presence and support, and as much as I appreciate what she has done for us......
Mar.C I need you to be alive and running soon. Liberate me.... from the chains of bull-lock carts

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Journey....

It's really quite fun... planning a wedding. Knowing that wedding is a stage to bring your relationship up one level is one thing, experiencing it yourself is another. We're a team baby! A TEAM.

She's better than me at sourcing quotes. I'm doing out the budget and timeline.. so fun. It's like a business, only thing is that monetary wise, we don't expect profits. Our revenue will be our union! =)

Let's see list....

1) Wedding Bans
2) PhotoShoot
3) Air tix + accom
4) Banquet
5) ROM JP and stuff
6) Bridal Car
7) Make-up artiste
8) Hair
9) Flowers
10) Photographer
11) Videographer
12) Invitation cards
13) AD Gown n suit
14) Brothers & sister's Ang Pow
15) Wine for dinner
16) Gifts for Guo Da Li

Wonder if we missed any thing.... ON ROUTE!!!! MARCH!

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

My Wedding.... so far

I know it's abit slow to update. But i shall try to keep abreast from now on...

It all started when we decided to marry each other. After all the troubles, all the conflicts, and every thing, some how we are still so in love with each other. Mistakes, quarrels all seems like a process now. And the marriage a milestone to our sweet future. Love you baby. I am really loving the way you are loving me. Always better as the day passes.

One day after that decision..., we walked past a taiwanese bridal shop road show. Then there and then we signed the package. And came a whole series of events that blew me breathless.

Okie I know my order is screwed. But who cares, I mean its a little memory between Fang and I. And it's special this way =)

Then came the search for a "auspicious" date... Oh my.. 2010 doesn't have many as it is the year of the Tiger. So most hotels are fully booked on the good weekends. In fact ALL weekends, be it good or bad. Baby took every effort in digging for hotels. I am sorry I did not help MUCH, but really appreciate what she had done. Finally Sheraton.... phew one left. Not that we have a choice. Besides it's a good hotel..... so here we go! Date... done! Photo shoot.... Done! erm.. i am still missing the proposal........

Deep in me, it is a personal principle that it is a must. Regardless where it is done, how it is done, etc. I must do it. It's a form of my love and respect for my precious dear. I did not tell her though. 1 month down, after placing the deposit for the hotel, she finally could not curb her doubts... "Dear, you ARE going to propose to me right??"

Hong En's thought: "shit. can u just keep your thoughts to yourself for once...."
Hong En's voice: "Yarrrrrr.... of coz i am. duh!"

Hong En's thought again.. "shit now she will be EXPECTING it. shit shit fuck"

Btw I was like thinking of nice nice plans.... Wait. Before that, ring plan! That one is easy, so briefly, just go for wedding bands testing. And get the ring size! =) Since my order is wrong in the first place. Worked to my benefit. Okie now..... nice nice plans......

Plan 1 --> Failed
Finally I decided... Since baby's first virgin flight on the plane was with me.. and she always wanted to take planes here and there. I decided that I would get her a ring...
On the flight, I would pretend to go to the toilet and go ask the stewardess for permission to push the trolley thingy.....Then push it to her and ask her if she want a drink and would she marry me? Like in the plane......

Then Question: the only plane that we will be on next..... is the plane to Taiwan for our photo shoot.
I told it to my FCT colleagues during Xmas pot luck lunch and they laughed their asses off....
"Wahahaha she will be all strapped in with the seatbelt and cant say no"
"wahahaha plane.... wahahha plane.... whahaha plane..."
"what if turbulence... whahaha"
"wahahahah on the way to wedding shoot... nononono of course u have to do it before that!"

Erm okie i got the point. ABORT! Since she was like expecting it.... I told her my plane plan! heh heh. (trick: flood her with information and throw her off course so there will at least be an element of surprise)

Lucky I aborted. I appreciated their laughter man... It was really not a good time for proposal. would have made my order of events WORSE. =)

Plan 2
29 Dec 2009
We went to Plaza Sing for a movie and stopped by SK, she tried and tried and really liked this ring...

30 Dec 2009
I decided that 31 Dec 2009 will be the DAY! last day of 2009 and on to 2010. Besides, I know what ring she liked! Plus we are going clubbing that night with Shannon and Stephen for countdown, so we will be dressed to kill and take pictures hahaha. But club.. i doubt is appropiate. Although i did contemplated to go up to the DJ and borrow the mike immediately after the countdown.... but nah. (luckily i didn't.... GBK and qiuyan was there... zzzz so paiseh)

Then i created a lil voucher for her...Hohoho I planned to bring her to Jewel box.... And after a meal... get the waiter to slip this in after i Paid the bill , with the change. Heee hee
Showed it to colleagues. Then EW suggested that, wouldnt you want to capture her expression?
Then something else came to mind.... hmm flowers. Where shall I hide it. I need to bring it to the cafe first. Think think think.... that evening, she went to meet up with Sher, so I fast fast chop chop went to PS to get the ring secretly and came back office to hide the ring.

31 Dec 09
She woke up 5 mins later... and we had to take cab.... AND GOD DAMN! i lost my phone on cab! wa kao! how lucky. SHIT!
There I was, thinking that maybe I should get her best buddy to ambush at Jewel Box to capture the moments and maybe spend the joy with her in the end. BUT I LOST MY PHONE!!! AAAHHH damn no mood. Msg her buddy in FB... urgent! I needed your number. Jewel Box seems to have reallllyyy bad reviews... so I thought why not the restaurant at Keppel Bay. Called.... shit they only had Set... no ala carte. and 80% of the course she don't eat!
Then by mid day i decided.. nah.. too rush. ABORT AGAIN!!!

Then that evening... asked her to log on my cafe world to cook.... Before we went clubbing... There she saw the msg... SHIT * DA BIAN = ONE BIG POOL OF SHIT! worse thing is that she thought i was doing something funny and trying to flirt with her friend. WA KAOz

There I "Jiang Ji Jiu Ji (4J)".... I told her the plan AGAIN!
"Damn sian lor... everytime like that. OKIE I was supposedly planning to propose to you at Jewel Box. Then I .... Keppel Bay....called...." "Dont believe you can call Keppel Bay and ask if they are serving set"

Next thing I know, I saw on FB, her status "I spoil my own surprise again..."

wahahahah Woots! I am on course! (Lol I am smiling now when I am typing this again... hahaha she is so so cute.)

Plan 3!!!! YEAH!
Then I kept telling her... I bought your ring long ago... so your SK ring came too late ... sorry baby.
It's a 298 ring with a HUGE sapphire with some rubies and emerald thingy on a GOLD ring lor... Cool right? Value for money with GOLD and so many rocks....

"huh.... but i like my SK ring leh.... =( "
"har.... but i thought you will be okie with non-diamonds leh... dont worry la baby.. trust me. you will love it de"
"orh.. okie ba... I will love what you buy for me. " (slight disappointment in her.)

2 Jan 09
Went BBQ for Ivan Stanley's Bday, so home late... slept till late the next morning.

3 Jan09
11am: woke up. Suddenly woke up with the thought.. TODAY IS THE DAY. Confirm! Remember that we saw Vanessa's picture and both decided that we want to visit Rider's Cafe someday. Checked online for the number. Cool they are open till 7pm.
No restaurants! Something nearer to nature with horses!!! That will be interestingly not so Singapore in terms of ambience...

12noon.. why is she still slping away.....................
1pm I woke her up... "hey you wake up and wash up! I need to go office pick up some stuff k, when I am back... I will fetch you and you come down so we can go back to yishun.. (her mum's)"
F:"Dear... can you please show me the ring.... I dreamt of it last night, it was some thick ancient looking ring like it was from Egypt and it was so scary and huge and there was a chain dangling from it... and was soooo colorful with the red and blue..." Please show me the ring... please please please...."
Me: "Dont be silly la.. I will not show you. Trust me you will like it. Its not that bad"

She woke up and off I drove to office to pick up my stash! Then dropped by my favorite florist in TPY central. Shit no nice bouquets.. (okie i suck at planning...) The only nice one is being reserved... So I asked her to make me one too! 20mins!!! shit. "can you make it 15mins?"
haha and she did! cool! flowers and ring! I am set to go!

Hid the flowers under jackets.... at the back most seat of Dad's MPV. Hid Ring in compartment near driver seat. Heh Heh. Smile Smile* Picked her up.
Me: "Eh I havent had lunch... lets go eat."
Fang: "whr.."
Me: "hmmm... how abt Rider's? the one on Vanessa's picture?"
Fang: "OKIE!" (She always liked nice places....)

Reached.... (har... non air con... and omg! it is packed at 4pm on a Sunday afternoon!!! Shit Shit Shit damn paiseh liao) Went in... hmmm "Baby let's pick the seats near the balcony... can see horses and plains.. nice ma.." (nicer scenery... away from the main crowd inside. I thought...)

YEAH I THOUGHT... it was rainy drizzling!!! And the rain was warm and moist.
So was the horse dung in the stables... and you know how that smell and how smell diffuses...

So both of us, menu in hand... ARGH! baby I think let's move in.... the stench is really unbearable. Okie~! Moved in... ahh~ better... Order fish & chips, etc.....

Waitress "Erm sorry... We dont have dinner menu... We only have tea now..."
"CRAP!!!!"

"chocolate cake, chocolate milkshake, iced latte, chicken kebab, fries.., tea scones"
yeah stuffed ourselves...

90% through the meal... "erm baby... do you smell the stench moving in?"
"Yar.... shit! lets finish up faster!!"

Almost done..... "Erm dear, can you ask for bill? I go toilet?" And she did.... I rushed to the car, moved the flowers to the middle seats, so I can reach them. I had to abort the cafe.. it really STINKED! I have no idea how the rest of the horse loving customers could bear it... I think they have sinus...

*Fast Forward to Car*
F: "Why are you not driving off..."
M: "Your seatbelt is not on..." (Panicking already.... erm erm erm how should I start!!!!!!)
*Straps her seatbelt*

F: "okie... now why are we still not moving?"
M: *points to this family in front of the car* (Didnt help I have like a whole STADIUM OF AUDIENCE IN FRONT OF MY WINDSCREEN!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
"Erm... see that family... so funny... I came out of toilet... then the mum was blocking me... then the 2 daughters kinda panicked and half-shouted 'mummy! you're blocking!' "
F: erm okie....

M:" Okie that's it. I cant go on forever with the lame-ness"
* took out the flowers...*
"erm baby i bought flowers for you... kiss her on her cheeks."
F: " huh for what?" (she was already smiling from her heart.... hahaha vivid till now.)
M: *took out ring from compartment. hidden from her sight because of flowers..
"will you marry me baby?"
F: smile smile smile smile smile smile
looked at me... looked at ring....smile smile smile...
M: *kissed her again..."so will you marry me?"
F: "yar... "
The rest... llalalalalal censored because I cant remember liao hahahaha it's all emotions and feelings. Details... gone. MISSION ACCOMPLISHED... phew. THAT WAS STRESSFUL.... funny thing was.... with all the planning... it ended up in a car. wahahahah

The thing is... She actually ransacked my room while I was off to office to pick up my stash. Search high and low for the ring... WAHAHAHA too bad baby... I was smart enough to lie to you that it is at home, plus hide it far far away!

I love you baby....

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